THE WALL
So, I've done pretty well I think with most of my goals but there's this wall. I'm getting depressed and bored. That was never my intention to begin with. Was I happier zoning out of the world and living out fantasies of life in my mind? Could that be true? I really don't think so. Why am I unhappy? Why am I bored?
I think it's the laziness. I don't DO. If I did more, would I be happy then or am I really happy sitting on my bum.
But it's something more than that... I think my goals are mirages of the life I want. They are so focused on fixing my problems that they neglect to enrich me. NONE of my goals were set to make me smile. They were all made to remove the bad but they never filled me with good... I need goals that Fulfill if I really want to be living a better life.

To Do List for today
- take a shower
- research life fulfillment
- make new goals
- take the kids to a birthday party
- go to a doctor's appointment for baby Charlee
Something nice I did today? My girlfriend is sick, she wanted ice cream. I'm kind of a stressed out person when it comes to money... but I wanted her to help her sooth her sore throat so, I made her some from scratch out of what we have.
It seems that most of your previous goals were focused on taking negative habits out of your life, leaving you with more fee time to... What? What is your dream? Bake more? Garden? Learn to knit? Take up carpentry? Read more novels? Write a novel? Roller durby?
ReplyDeleteAnd as a side comment, Sally is my pseudonym. (Says your cousin Sandi)
DeleteThat's the question isn't it... I think I want to accomplish something but I don't really know what... something I really need to think on. :)
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