Black lives do matter. I commend the black community for trying to break the biases that are still present in our nation and the world. Being racist should be uncomfortable. <click on this link if you want to understand more about white privilege and the racial bias. White privilege is a thing and does happen. Black people face an uphill climb in today's world. Just because the civil right's movement is over does not mean that things are all done changing. People who commit crimes should face justice... that includes the police, that includes black people, that includes white people.All lives matter. I understand why supporters of the Black live matter movement feel like that phrase is not the point of the conversation. Honestly the phrase has more of an impact in the pro-life/pro-choice debate, but there is a point to be made there. Not all black people are criminals, not all police target black people, not all white people are racist... All lives matter because we are all individuals connected to each other by the common bond of being human with red blood running through our veins. Humans matter, and right now black humans are asking us all to hear their voices. We should listen. We should listen without making them feel like whinny babies crying over spilled milk. All lives matter but it does not give you an excuse to ignore the injustice or pretend like it doesn't exist.
That being said I don't know if I have personally experienced white privilege myself. I'm white. I'm sure some of you are thinking "Of course you have experienced it. You are white therefore white privilege." But there is more to it than that.
White is not the only thing about me that people see. I may walk into every door as a white person but I walk out with so many more judgments than that.
As a person who falls into several minorities I find it difficult to get a job, be looked at with respect in the eyes of society, be taken seriously, find housing, choose where I live, and many more that cannot be explained in list format like this.
I am suspicious in the eyes of the police. I live in a small town in Tennessee. The police patrolled my street once a week for a year after I moved in. Why did they stop? My husband got a job at a gas station where he now know all the cops in our town by name and they know him. One even gave him a ride home from work when he would have had to walk.
It is illegal for my family to live in many states. It is also illegal for my family to live in many cities. I have been turned down by rental companies and/or specific home owners because I lived as an unconventional family. One of my neighbors put a letter in my mailbox that said it was illegal in our housing code for more than one family to live in the same house.
When I am in public I face people openly disgusted. A woman left the restaurant because she said she "didn't want her son exposed to that" because I kissed the cheek of more than one of my partners. When I go to a store there is pointing and staring if I hold the hand of two men at the same time.
I don't have any morals because I don't believe in God. I must be overcome by the control of Satan.
If I walk into a store that is visibly above my pay grade or below my clothing size range then the employees and customers look at me puzzled as to why I am in there. I've been followed around a store to prevent me from stealing something. Someone left the short line and went over to a longer line in the grocery store because I was in front of them.
My list of minorities that entitle me to nothing more than the underprivileged list and an automatic suspect in the eyes of police: I am an atheist. I practice witchcraft. I am poor, considered to be in poverty. I am fat. I have more than one spouse. I have more than the society accepted number of children. Some of my children were not birthed by me. One of my partners is a woman, sometimes people classify me as a lesbian. I am a bisexual. LGBTQIA excludes me out of fear. I have a mental health disorder that some people don't believe exists, or needs medication.
So, you see, when I walk into a store, a school, a job, a job interview I have a choice to make... Hide everything about who I am or accept that I may be discriminated against based on being me.
Some of you think I should choose the latter, stay closeted, "it's none of their business", "you don't have to shove it in people's faces", I should try to keep people comfortable around me by not telling them.
...but let me ask you this: would you ever tell a black person that in order to avoid encountering racism, discrimination etc. that they should wear makeup to make themselves appear white?
Most Christians make me uncomfortable because the automatically assume that I am. I don't ask them to remove their crosses because I don't want it shoved in my face.
Why should I accept that the health department won't talk to my son's other mother about the shots he will be getting? Why should I accept that they ignore her when she tells them about how he is eating or some of the concerns she has about his development? When I stay in the closet I have to force her voice to be muted in all of his care.
So why do I have to pretend to believe in Jesus, say that I only love my husband, answer the "how many kids do you have" question with a smaller untrue number, hear people tell me that my sexuality doesn't exist or is a phase, tolerate a world where the most searched for phrase connected with "poor people should ___" is "poor people should die", walk into a store that only sells small sizes and be looked at with disgust, be paid less than a man because of my sex, watch people leave a restaurant saying "I don't want my child exposed to that" and point at me. Why do I have to thank people who give me unsolicited health and weight loss tips or information.
I don't know if I experience white privilege because I face a massive set of predetermined biases already.
Black lives matter.
I am not racist, not even sometimes, and I support the message behind the movement. I do not support the violence. The black community should continue to stand up and make themselves heard, but they have to acknowledge that they are not alone. There are so many communities and individuals that are struggling too. Communities that face unjust laws, violence because of hate, and media disapproval.
I want people, white and black, to stop making me feel like the discrimination I face is insignificant on the basis that I am white.
